09 10

Feeling confused and wearing dungarees


Hello loves! Here is the day 3 of my dungaree challenge, to be honest I already feel bored :S ha!  Maybe wasn't such a good idea after all...will see, I think the weather doesn't help it is rainy and grey. My head is wondering a lot these days and this blog has been affected by that. One day I think something and the next day I want something different. I've feel this way in the past and even I panic I know this is going to take me to a better place, it is just part of the uncomfortable process of finding that balance. I think that is why I changed the blog's name and gave you all that speech about creativity...and blah, blah, blah I'm just having a real problem with identity at the moment, I feel like what I do has to be a reflection of who I am but to be honest I'm not sure if I'm doing that, maybe I am, perhaps I just need to challenge myself,  but the problem is that I'm not sure how...yet! I will take it easy I know it will come, always has.
Have you ever feel this way? Because I love to hear about that!


27 comentarios:

  1. I'm excactly in the same situation like you right now! On a private life basis, I do know who I am, but in my professional life ... uhmm... No. I for example always thought I would teach at a university, but I know it's not the right thing for me and after finishing my PhD I'm definitely off. But what shall I do instead? I guess time will tell. That brings me into a crisis about who I am, too. But the emptiness a change will leave is like a canavas - let's see what I will be going to paint on it later ;)

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    1. Thank you for sharing this too because I can relate too. I think the best would be not to stress about it and to have our minds and hearts open. Also, I believe writing down what you feel helps as well as meditation :)

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    2. Yes, writing about it helps me a lot, too! And talking to my friends... ah, and watching Sex and The City ;) Wishing you all the best, you are such a smart, clever and creative marmalade (haha ;) ), I'm sure you'll find a way :)

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  2. Bored or not, you look gorgeous (total Alexa Chung vibes going on!). I'm an extremely indecisive person, so one minute I love my blog and the posts I'm going, and the next I hate it all. I think the weather has made it harder for me to plan posts, but also a lack of time (exams etc). It's a pain! xx

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  3. I get exactly the same, am especially bad at the moment. I have no real qualifications or experience in anything other than admin work which I'm not great at so I started my blog as a way of getting more into my greatest loves, photography, flowers and nature, am losing heart with it though and like you aren't sure if I'm really representing myself truly. I have a university open day on Saturday though, which I'm hoping will inspire me to do something I truly love. I'm terrible though, I keep talking myself out of going to that and keep changing my mind about it all.

    Things always have a way of falling into place though. I hope it all comes clear for you soon, your blog is great, I love your illustrations and graphics and you're the coolest most stylish person I've ever seen. Stay strong and all will come good again and you'll know what you're meant to do x

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    1. I would say go to that open University day, you only can benefit from that. University is a great way to learn more about yourself and what you love. xx

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    2. Thank you for your lovely comment. Some how it is nice to hear I'm not the only one feeling this way. I agree with Hyppy at heart you should go to open university day people in there can give you some direction but really trust your gut instinct. Do what you feel is the right thing for you! :)

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  4. Oh Victoria, I can totally relate. Especially I get moments like this when I reach some type of routine or nothing exciting or rewarding happens. That’s when I start doubting everything, and I feel like I’ll never get where I want to be. One thing I have learned is that it is good to push through those moments, grow and keep consistent. Too many times I’ve dropped something I’ve developed right before I see the results. This time I’ll push through and see the results. I hope this helps in one way or another :) You’re so creative and beautiful, you’ll get there!

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    1. Thanks Karina, I guess a lot of people feel the same..

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  5. All the time lovely! I am thinking about starting a blog just for random photos I take. I don't think it would work on Memoir Mode. Nobody cares unless its an outfit post. I feel like I have style identity problems too. Always change my style...fashion blogger Madonna haha. I always love what you are doing so just go where it takes you and I love your dungaree outfits xx

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  6. i can totally relate. I am trying to reinvent myself. it's hard work, but it's totally worth while! considered having some coaching sessions? :) xx

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  7. Ah yes I have the same feeling, its why I started my blog. But my day day job is admin which is slightly soul destroying, hate the fact I have to work to live! Wish it was live to work, i.e. that I loved my job. I miss studying! Anyway I find you and your blog inspiring, so keep being creative and generally a cool ass gal xxx

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  8. I love the polka dot shirt and the splash of red with these dungarees! Love the look once again my dear! I think we all can feel this way from time to time, I would suggest not over thinking it to much and just let things progress naturally and just post what you feel at the time because cant get a more truer reflection of you then that! At least thats what I think but what do I know Ha! :)

    Take care,
    Daniella xox

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    1. Thanks for the kind words Daniela :)

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  9. Hola Victoria, creo que la mayoría de las personas tenemos momentos en los que no nos sentimos felices con nuestras vidas. En mi caso, tengo muchos proyectos en mente y me gustaría explotar mi creatividad como diseñadora, pero no parezco centrarme y decidir que es lo que quiero. Pienso que el secreto, es la intuición, hacer lo que te gusta a ti y lo que te hace sentir bien. :)

    Ana

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  10. I've been feeling like this recently too. I know who I am as a person & my style .etc but I feel as though professionally I am so unsure as to what I actually want to do with my career/life. My main problem is self doubt, I start things & then feel as though 'I cant do this' or 'I'm no good at this' & it seems as though it's pointless even trying because it will never go anywhere. I'm trying to be more positive though & like Karina said, push through to see the results of all the hard work. Hope you figure it out soon! :)

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  11. victoria, i think this is something many, if not all of us, go through, not that it's easy. i DO think you are expressing yourself well, at least i feel like you are. you are very creative, and i believe your blog a reflection of that. it's what i see.

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  12. Victoria, great write up and an honest self reflection. I feel like this all the time, I think it is part of the process of being creative or more in touch with being sensitive to things arounds us and inside us. I change my mind constantly, I am always in battle with my ideas, moods and wants. I think recognizing you are not 100% perfect is a good thing, wanting to challenge yourself to be better to represent your ideas in a new platform or the same but improved is a good thing.
    I like to believe if you work hard you can get be successful in life/work. Life is constant movement and knowing sometimes when to stop, reflect and go back in the movement is key.
    I think thats why so many creative ppl have ups and down more often than others. We think and feel too much. Thats a good thing xx
    M

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  13. hola Victoria! te entiendo, creo que vari@s estamos con ese sentimiento que a veces no deja dormir...hace un poco mas de un año, yo sentia que toda mi vida estaba arreglada: futura boda, trabajo estable, etc...y un dia me quede sin novio y me corrieron del trabajo, me cai pero me levante, pero esta vez quiero ser yo, a veces siento que soy 1 diseñadora atrapada en una abogada...pero se que pasara y crecere, es parte de la maduracion...
    t mando un saludo

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  14. hmmmm wao interesting one. i get this link in a chat room... they share me this link then i open it and i like it. i need to go again to chat room and say a thanks > :)

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  15. Bueno creo que todos los seres humanos y sensibles tenemos altas y bajas, estoy de acuerdo con lo que dice Melissa que se debe tomar esto como algo bueno, porque cuando vuelves de nuevo a ser tu ,te das cuenta lo fácil que es salir de la situación pensando siempre en lo cosa mas insignificante que te pueda animar

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  16. Veo que hay un cariño sincero en tus seguidores y una retroalimentación padrísima .Porque nos sentimos identificados contigo!! Besos!! Y espero esto sea pasajero!
    Gaby

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    1. Si la verdad me gusta que haya una interaccion :)

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  17. I feel ya, I often get bored with my blog, or feel like Ive grown out of touch with myself in order for my readers to be happy. Youll find youre groove soon! I'm always changing mine!

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  18. Dear Victoria, in Italy we say "you are opening a door that is already wide open"! I can completely relate with what you say and I think it's part of the human nature to question what we do and how we do it...and it's weird that, as most of the people that commented before, my main struggle is not on the personal level, but on the professional: am I doing the right job? The answer I keep repeating to myself is that in our life we can always decide to take a different direction. But we need to be passionate and very brave. Take care, Caterina

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